hey... this is me, just thinking while in me Lair. it will b probably alot pf me thinking in letters and just any epiphanies i have. it will maybe seem random., I'll try yo keep it in a logical, followable chain but no promises.
so first entry... im here again... just chillin before class....
i might make this a wekkly thing, idk.. i like the quiet... it l;ets me get away form ppl like my grandmother
~~ side note, this will probably b rant-y, so ya, b warned. also i think the double tilda (~~) will b a good symbol for breaking thought real fast
knowing me it'll b needed.. alot
anyway...my grandma.. she's like 78? 70-something, i dont even know
this sounds way morbid but im kinda waiting for her to die. maybe the family can heal once she's dead. and im pretty sure she's becoming senile but u cant tell her that.. oh no
she's not forgeting things, we're just remembering it wrong.
u cant tell the woman no, she wont let u
and she twists words around, like one time we were talking, just her and me. she was saying "dont get too greedy, dont get so hooked on money that u forget the ppl that r important"
and i said "i know. i wont. i dont really need alot of money. i'd b satisfied with enough money to support me and my kids if i have any" she now says i said i only wanted tonough to support my family.
also did u know that being on the computer all the time makes u stupid? makes u unable to think?
neither did i, until my grandma told me about how she played free cell on her computer lfor like 5 hours straight, then she had to take her insolin and it took her 45 minutes to figure out how. she's been doing it for 40+ years and she couldnt remember how to do it... it was obviously cause of the free cell, not cause she's pushing 80.
also she's ac relentless task master...
i work to slowly for her tastes "hey, dont b lasy, i knwo u dont wanna b here, but u have to, just keep working, it'll make u feel better, u just need to think more, get that brain pumpin"
she doesnt realize that im not workign slowly.. im working well
there's 2 ways to do any job....
do it well, do it fast. i guess there's a combo thing there too, but really it'll basicly b split into either done well, or fast
my grandma expects both fast, and well... not a combo of the to, but she wants it done with the quality of "done well" in the time of "done fast" it cant happen.
wanna know what happenes if i stop and thikn about the situatiuon at hand, or try to remember where somethign goes, or if im converting her commands into memory?
what are u doing, keep working, u dont need to stop, just do it"
oh come on, u know where it goes, it's been in the same place for 30 years"
(never mind she hasnt used it in 10 and i cant remember back that far)
are u listening to me? just picture in ur mind what im telling u"
i cant tell her "i am grandma, just like u say all the time" she'll get mad at me if i do, she'lll feel insaulted
also, wanna know who goes and plays cards for 6 hours when she's in a "nobody lves me" mood? me and my mom.
spent a whole sumer once just playing cards with my grandma
well that's the TARDIS telling me that i have to go to class
just as well too cause i should end this anyway
till next we meet, i bid thee, a fond farewell, and ado
